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Well some of you know thast I decided to go otu with her and talk.... it so hard for me to say anythign to her when we both feel like we need to be nice and not bring it up again but deep down inside we know there are words to be said,,, So I wrote her a note and gave it to her, you guys may think that is goofy but we used to do that when we started dating because we are both a bit shy when it comes to this stuff but here it is. Tell me what you think.

Hey,

I'm writing this on my laptop because I can't find a peice of paper and pencil around me and as we both know, I am to lazy to go and get one. Anyway, I dont mean to drag this out or anything since I know this is already hard enough on both of us(or at least I would like to think so). I just wanted to stress the fact that you were right in a way, so you are allowed to say "I told ya so!". I have been trying to rack my brain on how to align some words to represent some of the emotions and thought patterns that have been going through my head in my lack of sleep and so forth. When we first met you said that you didn't want to get into a relationship because you knew that something like this would happen. Well it did... and here I am trying my hardest to put on a mask and make you feel like your doing the right thing. If I ever showed you the way I am really feeling I know you breakout in tears and that is far from what I would want you to do. I have asked God to help but one thing I have learned about God is the fact that he is a very good "listener". He breaks my thoughts down and allows me to fix the problems myself. So the best conclusion I have come to, is to let you have your space and maybe one day something might spark, but that isn't what I am hoping for. I am hoping that you do what makes you happy. You know I could ask the question "why did you do it?" and you could give me a bunch of answers that dont make a alot of sense but what it really comes down to is that you aren't ready for a relationship, tell me if I am wrong... but thats what I think as of now. There are billions of things that I have been told of why it happened. Alot of people have come to the conclusion that it is because you found someone new but I would hope that knowing you, you would tell me... I don't know if your other problems had anything to do with your decision but if they did, it happened for a reason. When I say problems I am referring to such things as your sister leaving, she is a big part of your life and now you will basically have a void where she used to be. I am glad you spent alot of time with her this summer though, you did the right thing by doing that. I am quite glad that you broke up with me though, you showed me something that I didn't relize. I was changing as you said... I have become a little more mature and maybe you just didn't feel comfertable around me when I acted like that, because I was quite a goofball last year. Most important though, you made me relize that I was being two-sided, I would act totally diffrent around my "new" friends, than around you. I believe that part of me was still showing on the surface though when I saw you. Therefore, I am working on changing back to the side of me that you liked. You know I have said in my head that I need to move along... even when all hope is gone. I really need to stick to those words but it much easier said than done. There are some people (such as yourself) that one can become so attached to because you feel like home. What I mean by that is this... think about when you are away from your house for a while and you come home... thats the feeling I am referring to. It is a feeling of comfort, happiness, and the unknown good vibe all rolled into one. I would hope that you would remember me from how I used to be, not the worthless penny I became. Well, I better wrap it up before I start writing a book... I seriously doubt that you would want to read all this non-sense but you can if you want. I know when I read your note I didn't comprehend anythign it said except for the fact that "we were breaking up" and it said "love kari" at the end... the rest is quite a blur.I am hoping that by telling you exactly what I am going through, I will be relieved from all this anquish and sadness but who knows... it may just be one of my lame theorys again.


Love,
Mikey =)

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yea sure... I dont care.

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do you not know what it feels like to have a person that loves you? it is a certain vibe that a car could never give you.....

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She wants to see me on wednesday... so I hope you guys advice will help. I will keep you updated.

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Quote by alexiel01Awww... again sincerest apologies for you and your girl...
Just give her some time and space to think it over... who knows? Maybe
she almost made the biggest mistake in her entire life!
But First!:
>Ask her the reason why she broke up with you.
>Don't be depressed my friend, what I mean is you gotta get some 8
hours of sleep in 24 hours... believe me you're going to look less
attractive! But if she is certainly sure about her choice then set her
free. She could never be locked up in a cage forever you know. Plus,
there are more um... how can I say this, "attractive" women around
you... It's not yet the end of the world!

I have some very very attractive girls that like me but Kari was pretty and she had an amazing personality... That is what I loved about her. Once again tho... thanx for the comments. You guys are amazing.

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Thankyou everyone for you great advice... I really thank God for all of you. You are great friends and I am so happy that I have ytou to get advice from in time of need. I really appreciate the people who went into depth about the situation. It really opened my eyes open to what I need to do. I am going to marge the advice and use it wisely.

Thankyou everyone... *Group Hug* thats right... even the guys. ;)

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Well... to sum up the situation quick and easy... my girlfriend just broke up with me. It wasn't one of those girls that you find everyday she was basically perfect and we had been going out for like about a year... then out of no where she tells me that it is'nt going to work out in the future... I don't know if you guys can give me any advice but I really want her back and I have no idea what to say. I can't stand not having her and I can't sleep right now... so I dunno. I think I might be going through a depression phase again. I thought my life was perfect until last night and now I don't know what to think... without her I am nothing... I don't have the confidence I used to.

I'll shutup now though.

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I find them to be quite pointless when you can just get an ibook which is way better...

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photobucket - most ogranized
tinypic - alot of space
imageshack - quick uploading

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Quote by KhalisIt's all about Media Player Classic with the Matroska Full codec pack. Oh ya... now thats pimp. ^_^

I have to agree... I use that for pretty much everything

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I dont like the Mac Os anyway....

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Just interface

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Sounds like there is alot of talk about how the new eye-candy looks like crap... who gives! Stick with the old stuff or the new stuff and download FlyakiteOSX I made a thread for it in the tech section called "Mac Emulation" I think alot of people will be satisfied with that. My two cents.

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Linux is muxh more stable... nuff said.

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Full Metal...

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As you can tell I am on your side...

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Umm... does using the silver at my dads office to build random objects considered to be making jewelry?

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not possible.

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search GIMP on google ;)

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I really dont care about what he is or not doing with these files but I don't intend to intrude on his reputation by involving authorities to close his thread and make him look foolish. I really don't have a problem with him until he starts to say I want edit exp: "weezer - no one else" and change the beat then say it is mine.

Thats all... good day.

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This is so freakin coo` man. You is teh pizzle

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As of right now I am having a problem with my laptop not being able to connect to the access point >.<

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